“Welcome to Frontier flight 39 from Cancun headed to the United States,” announces the captain. “Our expected arrival time in 7:50, but we’ll try to get you there a little early. Fasten your seat belts, sit back, enjoy the flight, and let’s go home.”
Let’s go home. I’m not quite sure if I’ve been dreading or welcoming those words since we crossed the border into Mexico.
Joee and I weren’t planning on spending the week that we did in Mexico, but time was bountiful, money was scarce, and we were ready to get out of Belize. We spent most of our time on the white sand beaches of Tulum and roaming the streets inland. One morning was dedicated to exploring the ruins that oddly resembled an oversize put-put course. The rest of the budget was spent on swimming with sea turtles and sting rays, and snorkeling the cenotes, underground swimming caves, that run through Mexico. The last stop before Cancun was Isla Mujeres, named for the women that pirates used to keep there. It wasn't originally on the itinerary (to be fair we never really had an itinerary), but was a last minute replacement for Playa del Carmen. We had heard great things and were slightly disappointed to find the tourist hot spot that we had avoided in Tulum. Still the beaches were beautiful, only slightly more crowded, and most places took debit cards, which was great as cold hard cash was quickly running out. Between the two cities the week was a mellow one.
We got up early Wednesday morning even though our flight home didn’t leave till a quarter to five. Better to be safe than sorry should something go awry between the ferry, taxi, bus, and shuttle that took us to the airport. Of course nothing did and we even beat the Frontier employees to the airport with five hours to kill. Even in the last hours in Mexico I’m not sure how I feel about the next leg of my journey; the part that takes me back to the States.
I have been gone exactly 174 days. In that time I have lived and gone to university in a foreign country; visited another ten; learned about a dark history and continuing economic turmoil that Argentina faces; drank whiskey while trekking one of the world’s largest glaciers; got lost in the Andes; sampled some of the world's finest Malbec as I rode between vineyards; found out that bed bugs really do bite; ate Argentine steak until I was too full to move; learned what it’s like to travel alone even if only for a couple of days; stayed in an isolated hostel in a cloud forest; played with monkeys, sloths, and any cat or dog that came my way; took a yoga class in the jungle; watched a volcano erupt; conquered my fear of the ocean; swam with whale sharks, dolphins, turtles, string rays, and apparently a lemon shark; got my PADI Open Water certification; and although I’m far from fluent made significant progress on my Spanish.
But what I’ve done falls far short of what I’ve learned, some about myself and some about the world around me. I enforced what I already knew, that I love traveling. I love seeing how things work in other countries and being lost in the unknown. Even though it’s chaotic, stressful, and tiring at times I love the simple joys of backpacking. But that’s just what it is. Backpacking is nothing more than a vacation without the wheels of a suitcase. Even with my four months in Argentina I don’t feel like I really came to know it.
This is something I didn't realized until I was deep in a conversation with a porteño in Panama. I mentioned how everyone walked so slowly in the city, to which he responded, “Until you understand why they walk so slow you’ll never really understand Buenos Aires.” This simple statement made me question what I had taken away over those four months. It makes me curious. It makes me want to pick up and live somewhere else with the goal of truly coming to know another country.
What I have also failed to realize in the past is that for all of the new things I try abroad there are equal opportunities back home. I’ve never been to the East, down South, or even the Grand Canyon, which is in my own backyard. The idea of staying within the continental U.S. to travel is a new, but exciting prospect for the next journey.
So as I sit here on this Airbus 320, 38,000 feet above Texas I’m still not sure how I feel about the words “Let’s go home,” but I do know it’s time. Even if only because Bank of America and Arizona State say so. If nothing else what I’ve realized is that it’s not just traveling that’s the great adventure, but coming back to the starting line. "We shall not cease from exploration. And the end of all one's exploring will be to arrive where we started. And know the place for the first time." -T.S. Eliot